Resistance

refusal to accept something new or different, effort made to stop or to fight against someone or something; the ability to prevent something from having an effect

Yep. Those short definitions courtesy of Merriam Webster say it all. Lots of resistance going on lately. Alex's mom insisting her heart attack changes nothing, refusing to accept new ways of doing things. Refusing help with the caregiving of her Parkinson's disease afflicted husband. Fighting her son and his ideas at every turn. 
Mom not accepting her ostomy as permanent. Resisting learning how to change the device because that would mean it IS permanent. Not allowing her pills to work. Fighting me and clinging to the hope of something better.  Holding onto grudges.  
Me hanging in to grudges with my mom and family and resisting the urge to get over it already. Pouting over my self imposed circumstances.  
Resisting. Pulling away. Refusing. Blocking. Fighting. None of those are positive terms. They all involve negative energy, meaning the energy used to resist is subtractive. Draining.  
Accepting. Embracing. Holding tight. Welcoming. Positive energy inducing.  Additive.   
Letting go and letting God steer my ship.  
Without resistance.